if you're subjected to a pin prick long enough the pain turns into numbness. when is enough enough?
enough was yesterday.
I hope you understand that.
but you don't know me. at all. so you could never understand what this means.
you are an abstract construct that doesn't make sense to me anymore. A part of me that has come and gone and sorry for you, the here and now is what is important. I have been hanging on for a long time. I have been vying to know you genuinely for a long time. I have been retracing steps from the past. and I am a fucking fool.
the here and now, the this very moment.
you are not congruent with my life. at all. and I am completely okay with that.